Jordan was on my couch

Today I watched the Asian Cup Quarter Final home with my three children Rinad 7 , Bilal 4and a half and Sanad 2 and a half . Rinad my daughter informed  by her older cousin and influenced by his enthusiasm was quite aware of what was on stake and led the cheers . The boys naturally followed. Bilal although not much interested in football  knew  that a Match means winning or losing and wanted Jordan to win. Sanad well just followed .

We made popcorn ,sat on the couch and cuddled under the fleece blanket enjoying the warmth of the gas heater.

I told them who's who : The Red was Jordan and White is Uzbekistan .

Rinad was our commentator she pointed out the passes, the goals and commented
 "Thank you! " she said excitedly . I was surprised and  asked"why?". she answered "that Uzbek player just passed the ball to the Jordanian Player".

She was excited : Shafee3 

Bilala:" hehehe Shafee3 Shafee3 "

Rinad :"Goal Goal you can make it ".

Sanad: "Goal Goal "

Rinad :" Oh Out"

Sanad :"Out Out!!'

We started to sing " hey yallah haey yallah "the kids sang their heart out 

The First Goal , The Second Goal : 2 Goals in the Jordanian nets 

Bilal said " Can we cheer for the winner ?"

Rinad: Of course not ! You have to cheer for your country , it's where we live

Bilal  nodded 

I started to cheer :  It's ok Jordan is like fire " معلش شو صار الأردن زي النار "

Rinad cheered along and also Sanad . 

Bilal asked us to lower our voices.

 Then the Jordanian Goal! The sitting-room was shaken

Bilal cheered and sang again .

Sanad was dozing.

Rinad asked me  "Is there a  prayer we can say so that Jordan wins?" 

So many lost chances , so many disappointments  and our team lost.

Rinad was sad . 

Bilal asked if we can move out of the country and live in Sharm Il Sheikh

Sanad was asleep. 

I told them" It was a fun game and the team tried their best and all would fail but what is important to do our best and learn from the mistakes "  you see at this age a mother still has influence and must spread hope.

I really believe in that , but won't stop anyone of my kids from seeking a better life although I pray they can realize it  in Jordan . 

Dozing

My Head is getting heavier, nevertheless  my hands are still abl to type ; The need of communicating is so strong  and   infected throat is not helping.
I don't want to open my mouth  and I feel like blabbering ....
"when One has to blabber, blabber one must !" I say
Although I read somewhere that the more you talk , the less interesting you are .
Hmm then I must be pretty dull at this moment .
Ok guys bare with me , let see if this is going to  take us anywhere .

I ve never been drunk  or wasted , I never drank or used and will never inshallah , but I always asked myself why would people drink or use?

Do they need to generate this feeling of  ease , carefree and to loosen up (l wonder if this is a word??!!)

I never felt that there would be a need for alcohol or any other drug to be or feel happy ,
I can easily laugh, I can even feel light headed .
 I can laugh and the laughter is genuine , I can never be too serious even when shit is happening ...I laugh at it .
I can never be angry for too long .
I think anger doesn't suit me ,I know me, I utter sharp , hurtful words when I am angry ..I can really hurt ! I am a drama queen ..but" that's just air out" I say .
Then I go back again , I hope my friends and family understand and most of the time they do ...because we have a fanatic love going on .
See I think it's better to say these words let it out , preferably in a calmer more wise way .
Then talk it over.
Don't let it boil inside , if you do the water will dry and all you have left is someone with no soul.

Don't drink away you feelings ! Feel them " Cliche huh? "
Cry it all out ... live it .
So Live is the word of the day .

Did I tell you , I found warmth in Facebook today ? I got a lot of Salamteks " Get well soon!"

I think I can sleep now ...thank you my warm computer friends if you pass by say :Hi !